15 Things

Things That I hate:
1. Head aches, and for some reason, they seem to be controlling my life right now.
2. People that are totally fake.
3. The non traditional student who sits at the front of the class with 3 sharpened pencils and ask stupid, yes I mean stupid questions.
4. 3rd shift... who invented it anyways?
5. Being away from Cora, Emily and Abby.. I miss them.
6. Feeling weak in anyway.
7. Being alone.
8. Dirty dishes.
9. Not knowing whats going on.
10. When my car doesn't preform to what I think is 100%
11. People who are sick and spared their germs all over creation. HAND WASHING!
12. When someone pretends to know what they are talking about and really don't.
13. Being treated like a child, or like I don't know what I'm doing.
14. Not having my cell phone.
15. Not being able to sleep.

Things that I love:
1. My sisters.
2. My home town, which is lame.. But its true.
3. New socks, like bran new, never been warn.
4. Text messaging.
5. A good book, that your lost in.
6. Being needed.
7. The totally darkness, and there is someone next to you, that you can't see, and the only way to know they are there is to feel.
8. The night sky. I love the stars.
9. Apples, that will change soon, but this week I love apples.
10. Being called "sissa". Its the best word in the world.
11. My camera.. even though its MIA right now!
12. My bed, with my pillows, the pillow and my blankets.
13. Camp.
14. The 4th of July.
15. Paradise by the dash board light, By Meat Loaf.


Today was a normal Tuesday. The day after monday always has few expectations, the worst day of the week is over and the middle of the week is tomorrow. I'm a waiting the end of the week, as I do every week, but this week, I have real plans. Two friends and I are heading to upstate New York to see a friend in college. I've been iffy about about going, but I'm finally excited. Its going to be a true road trip, and truth be told, I've never been on a road trip.

I normally head home every other weekend, and wont be this weekend. I'm really missing my sisters, if you can't tell by the lists above. Its been to long since I've seen them. I'm wondering if they think about me often. I'm worried that Abby has begun to out grow me. I've talked to her twice on the phone in the past week and each time she tells me "I'm really busy Sissa, I can't talk." What on earth could a 4 year old be so busy with that she can't talk to her sister on on the phone? My heart breaks a little each time.

enough.

crashed

My computer crashed today.. not literally, like in 10 thousand little pieces, but thats pretty much how it feels. My life, photos, music.. ect. was on that damn hunk of metal.

I became a follower of a blog today, that almost makes me feel like a huge dork. (...no, not almost about it.. I'm a huge dork for that last move.)

I feel like I slept the day away today, I really didn't though... It just feels so wasted.. lets reflect back on the day:
I suppose I should begin when the day "started"

Midnight: I was on the phone with Tom, and I had a temp that was flying out of control. (I'm a wee bit dramatic.)

1: Still on the phone with Tom... did I mention, that I was at work doing my duty in the world by saving people with developmental disabilities, one at a time. or.. maybe I just watch them sleep, and check on them every 2 hours...

2:hung up with Tom.. and then "worked"

3 to 6: I dont remember... I didnt shit around the house... trying to do anything but sleep.

7: my temp was 99.8 (I win.)

7:15: Finally out of work and headed toward Toddle Inn.. to work some more.. lame.

7:30 to 10: I left Toddle Inn early.. I didn't feel good at all.

10 to 2ish: trying to pick up the 10 thousand pieces of my computer

2 to 4:30: sweet sleep...

4:30: I received a call from my cousin.. needing help. I seem to always be that resource for him. And, I love it. I love playing the big sister role.

5 to 8: again.. sleeping.

..now I'm here.. rambling for no reason.. why am I drawn to this?

Just so you know..

Before I start.. I feel it's important to state a few simple get to know me facts:
1. My name is Kayla, only a few people call me Kay.
2. My sisters are the most important people in the world to me.
3. I love my family and friends, they push me threw the hard times.
4. I love being in school. I'm an education major.
5. My dream job? As of right now, Kindergarten teacher.
6. For the first time in my life, I'm without a dog named Cooper.
7. I'm from a small town, and I love it.
8. I had the same best friend my entire school career, and I'm still in contact with most of them.
9. I have a recent obsession, with learning about the... lets call it unknown.
10. Sometimes, the above makes me feel crazy.
11. I miss not seeing my sisters everyday. (I feel I should mention my sisters are 4, 7 and 8.)
12. I'm 20 by the way, we're very patiently waiting for August 14th, in which I will be 21.
13. My two biggest fears: being alone, and losing my memory.
14. I have a pillow, that I can't sleep without. And by "can't" I mean.. I can.. Just not well.
15.I'm currently working as a DSP/CRMA, supporting people who have developmental disabilities, in a home setting. I also work in a 80ish bed nursing home as CNA. (I also student teach 15-20 hours a week in a class room, that has eight 1 year olds.. some might not consider it "work"... but i do.)
16. In the past 3 years, my hair has turned from blond to brown.. I have just recently come to terms with this.
17. I love to list..
18. I'm a tad OCD about all things messy, germy, and gross.
19. My bestfriends name is Nikki. I'd be lost without her.
20. My roommates name is Kristina, we've had our apartment for about 2 months.
21. This whole blog thing, seems like a nice way to vent.. but I'm not totally sure I'm going to like it.-- and who's going to read it?
22. Once, I was bit by a painted turtle. I now hate the fuckers.
23. I witnessed all of my sisters births.
24. I once recked my car with 3 very close friends it, I now HATE driving. But I enjoy to ride.
25. I love the idea of "game night" I just need to plan one!
26. People watching is one of my favorite sports.
27. The above may be why I love BINGO! Haha.
28. Speaking of bingo, my friends are always telling me I'm an old lady at heart.
29. I love little old ladies. They are my favorite.
30. I write everything down in a book, no its not a journal or diary..

Enough for now.. :)